OH MY GOD. I quit my corporate job.
You guys, I’ve been dreaming of the day where I would finally be able to say “I quit” and become my own boss. Writing this post seems so surreal, almost as if it didn’t even happen . . . but guess what? I DID IT! And it feels f’ckn AMAZING. 🙌🏼
I know I’ve been MIA in the blogging community for a while, however one person can’t do it all. To be completely transparent, 2018 was one of the best and worst years of my life.
Before I explain why this past year was so awful, here are some things I’m thankful for that kept me going waiting for that light at the end of the tunnel:
- I made some amazing new friends in the blogging community. You girls know who you are! I can’t imagine this crazy blogger-life without our daily vents and creative brainstorming sessions.
- I landed my first paying client for graphic design.
- I landed my first paid collaboration with a company through my blog.
- I co-hosted my first blogger event
- I relaunched and rebranded my blog and website
- I officially launched my own graphic design business
- Lastly, [and most important] I had an amazing group of friends and family who supported me along the way, even though they didn’t understand my full vision. I truly can’t thank you guys enough!
You would think after accomplishing all of these things I would be the happiest and most fulfilled person I could be. Well, thats actually the opposite of what happened. Here are some of my lowest parts of 2018, which led me to finally quit my corporate job and start a new chapter of my life:
- I learned what “pulling an all-nighter” felt like
- I realized I spent 12 out of 24 hours each day doing something I didn’t have a passion for anymore.
- I became distant from my closest friends and family because I was juggling too many things.
- I lost the joy in blogging because it became a “task” rather than something I loved.
- I regularly suffered from both physical and emotional pain.
- I felt like a fraud acting as if everything was perfect, when in reality I cried in the shower every single night and regularly in bathroom stalls at work.
- I forgot how to be creative.
- I forgot how to be happy.
- I lost my purpose.
Dealing with [and hiding] all of these dark secrets was mentally exhausting. Especially when I had to jump on an Instagram story in front of all of you and quickly wipe the tears away to be like, “Hey Guys! I have this amazing thing to share…”
I was just done with it all.
So to wrap this up, here are all the things I’m saying goodbye to before I turn the page to finish this chapter of my life . . .
Goodbye to . . .
- My hour-long Long Island Rail Road commute every day. It’s been a long eight years of delays and “sick passengers”. 😂
- Arriving to work in a full sweat before the day even starts.
- Being smushed like a sardine on the subway . . . a lot of the times into some random person’s personal space.
- Crying in bathroom stalls.
- Penn Station [I hate everything about you.]
- Twelve hour days.
- Corporate structure, meetings and cubicles.
- Summer Friday’s and paid vacation time.
It took me a while to realize corporate isn’t for everyone. The “perks” don’t always equal happiness and that’s okay! My ability to grow shouldn’t be based off of someone else’s discretion, and that was one of the first signs I knew this industry was NOT for me.
Leaving this corporate career means my future is a big question mark . . . and to be honest it’s quite terrifying but also exciting! I’m ready to take this HUGE leap of faith and never look back because the future is looking bright and I’m ready for my next challenge.
Thanks for reading! I hope to share more #real-talk posts like this in the future.
Alright Chapter Two . . . let’s do this.
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/ / As always, this is my personal blog. This blog post is not sponsored. Any views or opinions represented in this blog are my own and do not represent the views of any company or individual I may mention. This post may contain affiliate links where I make a small commission if you click and shop using my links. It won’t cost you a penny, but helps keep this blog running!
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